I was talking to one of my brothers the other day and we were saying how when we were kids, we always had security. Never uncertainty. Now as we've gotten older, we've learned that there are no guarantees. We're forced to just roll with what we've got at this moment.
I do consider myself and the rest of my family pretty damn lucky. I've had an amazing life so far. My childhood is something I look back on and smile. I couldn't have asked for a better one. Never a dull moment. And now here we are. If you want to get technical, we say goodbye to my dad a little each day. I'm holding onto so many memories. Those are what get me through. On so many nights when I close my eyes, I go back to the family vacations to Disney World, the job sites with dad and my brothers, every basketball game of mine dad came to, our 4 horses we rode together ... oh the horses. Dad could ride and he loved it more than anything. It took him back to uncle Al and the days on his farm.
So I guess I just need to keep reminding myself how lucky we are and how thankful I am. That Drew knows and loves her papa, that I have had the most loving and dedicated father, and that I've seen the example of my mom and dad's love that is one of a kind. Its what we should all have.
And at the end of the day when I watch dad kiss Drew while she's sleeping, I know nothing else matters but this moment right now.
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